I AM NOT EQUIPPED TO HANDLE THE AMOUNT OF DYING THIS EPISODE POSSESSED. GODDAMNIT. SAYID. AND FRANK. AND SUN AND JIN. AND SAYID. AND SUN AND JIN. AND FRANK. NO NO NO.
I know dad must have felt pretty uncomfortable in the living room with two weeping messes, but DAMN IT.
This is LOST ripping out my heart on a whole new level. OH MY GOD.
Did we just sit through almost two season of waiting for that Sun/Jin reunion ONLY TO HAVE THEM DIE TOGETHER IN THE VERY NEXT EPISODE. But he wouldn't leave her, he'll never leave her, and it's so fucking tragic and romantic and I CAN'T HANDLE THIS. *cries more*
And Sayid? *wails* But, god, even though he died? He proved with that one act that he was still Sayid and not a black smoke zombie or whatever you'd want to call him. He was still good and the last thing he did was to sacrifice himself for - dare I say it - the greater good, to try and save the rest of them. I can't, oh my god. I'm too emotional and conflicted and upset to even be typing this.
And FRANK. I kind of felt, with the awesome amount of him being badass from the start of the episode, that he was going die. WHIIINE.
that_evening? This was not a good night for you. :( *hugs*
WE NEED A SUPPORT GROUP ASAP.
Okay okay okay. I have to try to move on because there was more to this episode. OH MY GOD. HURLEY AND KATE AND JACK CRYING AT THE END. MY HEART.
And there was so much dying and hurting that only a small part of me is thinking (and I sincerely apologize to any Kate fans on my flist, you guys know I love you regardless ♥): IF THEY WERE GOING ON A KILLING SPREE WHY IS IT THAT SHE ONLY GETS SHOT IN THE SHOULDER AND GETS TO LIVE. EXPLAIN THIS TO ME, SHOW.
Okay, I'm sorry. I really, really am. But yeah, like I said, it's just small part of me. ;P
But can I just say that Smokey wanting to kill all of the candidates makes more sense than him wanting to take them all off the island with them? One of them is supposed to replace Jacob (JACK. IT'S OFFICIALLY OFFICIAL.) as the guardian of the island and the person who will keep him (Smokey) trapped on the island, so it makes sense that he would want to get rid of them.
And as much as I am THRILLED THAT NOT!LOCKE KILLED SOME OF THE ANNOYING NEW PEOPLE, damn it, I guess Widmore is a good guy after all. He put them all in cages to try and protect them from EXACTLY what just happened. I appreciate the effort, man. But you're still a douche, sorry.
I felt so bad for Claire. They left her. Again. And even though it's a good thing she didn't get on the sub, it's still cold. And I was so scared that she was going to get killed in the shootout and a little amazed to find out that I actually care. :P
I may have been bitching about Kate, but I kind of loved that even with a bleeding shoulder, she was still worried about Claire. With the death rate, guys, this is NOT the time for me to start caring about more people than I already do. Cause the likelihood of their survival is not good.
Also? Given said death toll, I have never in my life been so happy that an episode was 100% free of Richard and Miles. *clings to them*
I mean. I know this stuff happens in tv shows. Characters die. I don't expect everyone - or at this point, anyone - I love to make through the end alive, in this universe anyway. And we're getting someplace now, right? We're moving towards whatever the big ending is going to be. But it hurts a lot.
But they're going to live on with their happier lives in the AU. That has to be it. They have to. THEY HAVE TO OR SOMEONE WILL GET HURT.
Jack Shepherd? I LOVE YOU. I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. I hate to say this every week, but he's going to be the new Jacob. I mean, it can't be any other way. He's perfect for the job.
AND. In spite of all of the much deserved jears, there was this one small moment that made me happier - especially since I was getting all nostalgic making my lists earlier - than anything else this season:
Smokey: I don't know who told you that you have to stay, but they were wrong.
Jack: John Locke told me I had to stay. *kicks ass*
HELL YES. IN YOUR FACE. THIS IS THE MOST AMAZING THING EVER. THIS IS WHAT I LIKE TO SEE. ♥ ♥ ♥
Thank god for for the AU or this episode would have been way too much to handle even more than it already was.
Jack keeps trying to fix Locke and man that makes me so, so happy even if Locke keeps turning him down. But I get why he does. And I kind of did feel bad about Anthony Cooper because he obviously was not the world's biggest jackass in this universe, but... Does it make me a horrible person that I was just thinking: KARMA. IT'S A BITCH. I really should be ashamed. I'm going to hell for that or something. :\
AND BERNARD. BERNARD!!!!
And Claire. I awwwwwww'ed so bad over the music box and Jack inviting her to stay with him! There were warm fuzzy feelings!
LOCKE. He was lying half-unconscious in the hospital and I'm like DID HE JUST SAY BOONE?!?! The role reversal between Locke and Jack is making me soooo happy. And when Jack said "I wish you believed me" - OH GOD.
Fuck, the dying. It just have to say it one more time. It hurts.
OKAY. Well, I know some of you probably might not be, but I AM SUPER EXCITED FOR NEXT WEEK. THERE WILL BE JACOB AND SMOKEY. OLD SCHOOL STYLE. FLASHBACKS. :O
AND THERE MIGHT NOT BE ANY DYING. AND IF IT IS IT WILL PROBABLY BE SOME RANDOM FLASHBACK CHARACTERS THAT I DON'T CARE ABOUT. AND MAYBE THERE WILL BE FLASHBACK RICHARD?!
Did I even cover everything? My brain is kind of... There are too many emotions. Well, you guys know how it feels, right?
So, yeah. I'm done for now.